We officially have two FOSTER KIDS!
Never did I think I would be so excited and relieved to get kids into a broken system. God has confirmed we are on the path He has chosen for us and for these boys and while it is not the path we have chosen or expected, it is paved with His holy footprints having gone before us.
(If you're altogether confused about what and who I am talking about read here and here and here.)
I'll be honest, there are moments when I am frightened by the fact that the boys are in the custody of the state. That, while we can now take them to the doctor, enroll them in school and get them the counseling they need, we are still not "in control".
But then I remember, or someone lovingly reminds me, that we are never in control. Of anything. You'd think the past four years would have taught me that, huh?!
So here we are. In the midst of a broken situation inside a broken system. But the glorious thing about being here is that God has to work.
We can do nothing.
NOTHING.
God has to show up and He has to work.
He will either work through a broken system or He will work through broken people and breathe life into a broken family.
I don't know the Lord's ways. They are SO MUCH higher than my own.
I do know that He is able and I am trusting Him to be willing to work on behalf of these precious boys for their good and for His glory. The system may be broken but my God is sovereign.
“But God doesn't call us to be comfortable. He calls us to trust Him so completely that we are unafraid to put ourselves in situations where we will be in trouble if He doesn't come through.” ― Francis Chan, Crazy Love: Overwhelmed by a Relentless God
I love this honest and heartfelt post.
ReplyDeleteI saw your post on We Are Grafted In and seeing Safe Families in your bio caught my eye. We are also a Safe Family. Our two SF kids are currently with their mom, but I have a feeling they'll be back. Thank you for blogging even just a little about your journey. It helps those of us who are going through it. I have a blog post I'm working on called Co Parenting With A Stranger, but since I don't know the end of the story yet, I haven't finished it. SF is a great program, but there's a lot of emotional growth that goes along with it! Even as former foster parents and experienced adoptive parents, there's still learning to be done. :)
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